I’m devouring my way through the sidebar and I can’t believe how beta I’ve been in the past, and how true all of this stuff is.
Tried a bit of catch and release recently, which has given me the phone numbers of 3 potential plates who don’t give a fuck that I’m married, and all 8 out of 10 or above (1 is a 19yr old model).
So the abundance side of things is shaping up well, and it’s having a definite effect on my wife who has started to pay me more attention and give me more sex. We’ve gone from maybe once a month to now around 2-3 times per week.
All seems great, however I believe I’m experiencing an existential crisis of sorts. I used to put pussy on a pedestal but now it just seems fairly ‘meh’. I think this is a result of my need for validation going down whereas before it was sky high.
Business is going pretty well.
I don’t have any serious goals, and that’s my problem. I’ve always been a ‘shiny object syndrome’ person, putting half hearted effort into things and abandoning when the next new thing comes along.
Life is good, it’s comfortable, but inside I’m in crisis. Mid 30s now, 3 kids. How do I make a fucking difference in this world? I live in a sparsely populated area where most people come to retire.
I’m bored with life. An affair is not going to solve that.
Is this common for guys my age? Have you experienced the same? How do you get through this?
The problem is, if you ask me what do I really want from life, my truthful answer is: “I have no idea”.
What goals/mission can you have when you feel so completely lost?