It seems that embracing the suck has been taken to a whole new level.
Had some blood work done to check my Test levels. I thought they were low and i was right, 253. I'm not sure what my true level is since the amount of stress i am under right now is enormous (read next point) and cortisol will suppress your T levels, not to mention I'm having trouble sleeping. I knew something was up when i just wasn't seeing the gains i was expecting at the gym. Either way I'm going to try and get on some TRT regardless so i can at least feel a little better. Hopefully when some of this stress resides ill have a normal resting T level.
To top it off i finally pulled out of my wife that she cheated on my physically. I killed the puppy immediately, but i am a broken man at this point. I'm in a daze of shock still after 11 years of being with her.
I am going to move into another apartment closer to my friends and work, continue to lift, sidebar, and progress. I have no other choice but to improve.
Any recommendations are appreciated and thanks to anybody who has commented on my threads.