Prior post, linked out here: https://www.reddit.com/r/askMRP/comments/4kqu6o/12_year_marriage_flip_captains_log_week_2/

Guys - I'm looking for some guidance on the next phase of lifting/diet.

A quick update - from mid-May, I decided to own my shit, lift, get my MAP in order, STFU, read the sidebar, be present, focus on myself, focus on my kids, and march forward with frame. Things are incredibly better in so many ways that you all predicted, that I did not believe then.

Long story short, divorce was finalized at the beginning of August - financially I did what I had to to close it out (with help from my lawyer - thank GOD for him), and I am seeing my kids on the schedule that I wanted. Oh and the new girls are fun... Anyway, plenty of shit to own up to, no doubt I was Beta and a Drunk Captain.

Still a noob in many ways, but I can vouch that after 131 days of lifting (missed 1 day of lifting due to logistics back in June) on the Starting Strength program - I am in a different place. Squats are at 455 (was doing 95 lbs barely on May 9), deads are at 305, bench sucks at 215, etc. My body fat is hovering at 15.8-16.3 with my weight ranging from 185-190. My diet is massively cleaned up, no sugar/processed foods, no soda, beers at most 2 days a week, max 3 drinks in an evening, with tons of protein shakes daily, and a cheat day once a week. I don't have the size I was hoping for by this time, but the strength is unreal, as in the strongest of my entire life. I feel I'm at a cross roads now - here's the question -

What is a decent lifting program (ideally with an app) that will start to help me increase size while maintaining/slowly increasing my strength? My vascularity is starting to show in the arms / shoulders, but still covered with fat I think. I don't want to lose the test/pump that I'm getting from the heavy weights - the chemical balance I have now is markedly different than prior to lifting. Cannot be explained to those that haven't put the work in, IMHO.

If the answer is STFU and keep grinding, I'm cool with that - if there are other programs that will help to jump start size gains, that's what I'm after. I have read this post, but it seems to be all over the place and not specific to someone in my situation: https://www.reddit.com/r/marriedredpill/comments/3kxmpx/lifting_its_not_a_choice_you_need_to_make/

Thanks for any guidance on the lifting, at some point I'll post here or in The Red Pill regarding recent field reports. Getting my own frame back enabled me to take back my life.