I've been spinning plates for a long time now, intially I felt like I was god, but the anxiety it causes is way too much. So much so that I now think it's not worth it.

Condoms ain't a 100%, and that's the only thing under my control. I am so paranoid. I take extra care to make sure I take every precaution. I make sure I do everything right. So much that sex becomes more like an open heart surgery than a fun activity.

Anyone else had this ? Specially when you were young ? Am 21 .. solutions please if you have any