I am a 20 year old male.

When I was in my first LTR at 18, I had a pretty big pregnancy scare ( we didn't even have unprotected sex but I was still freaking out ). I thought my life would be ruined, thankfully she wasn't pregnant.

Anyways, I am not sure if that developed my feelings or if I was like this before that, but I have a HUGE fear of pregnancy. It is one of my biggest fears in life. I do not want to have a freaking child yet, I am too young.

This is seriously screwing up my chances with women. I am going to the gym, I upped my game and am able to pick up 7s and 8s without many problems however I can't get intimate with them because of being so scared of them getting pregnant. We get intimate up to the point of the intercourse and I always just draw the line there and stop everything. Condoms can break, pills aren't effective. I am just scared because getting a girl pregnant would ruin my life.

How to deal with this? I am not THAT bothered about not having intercourse, I'd happily not have it and be safe without it, but these girls don't want to settle for less so after seeing them once or twice they just ghost.