I created a throwaway account for this post.

I am a Christian and have tried the youth group at my local chruch but 90% of the time it was just 1 guy talking like a regualr sunday service and that wasn't what I was seeking. Let me give some more background about myself. I have been homeschooled my whole life so making friends has always been on the tougher side. When I was younger I befriended neighbors and would hang with them; however, the people I used to know then has since moved away. Further, my brother has gotten into some rubbish arguments with the neighbors my age, so they dislike my family. So the people who live next to me aren't a good option for friends. The last good friend friend I had was 6 years ago and since then just nothing, and when I say "nothing" I mean no text, no calls, just the abyss. I'm in my senior year of HS. I'm taking duel credit classes at my community college and I work as a cashier. I thought once I get into CC I would make friends. However, my social skills are as dull as a butter blade. My social skills are like a black void that keeps me from interacting with others. My lack of social skills have manifested in loss opportunities. For example, my first class at CC there was this girl my age (and my type) that I thought was giving me some suggestive looks. Further, she would talk about her home life (which was wretched). But these conversations never lasted pass 2 mins so I thought she was just finding someone to vent to. The night before the last class, I was going to give her my number; however, I realized I didn't even know her name and I thought "wtf am I doing asking a girl out if I don't know the very basics." On the last day I was waiting for my mum (who was late) to pick me up from class, and the girl asks if I want a ride back. I said no, but she ask like 3 more times and kinda insisted. At the time, I thought she felt bad for me and just wanted to help me out. I've had other situations like that one. However, I'm not sure how to improve my social life. Most people I meet like me but just kinda overlook me. Like my coworkers. I can't take the isolation anymore. I feel I'm about to break.