Introducing Myself

rocknrollchuck · 2018-09-26T14:27:26+00:00

Welcome!

Using dumbbells at home gym for now, not sure how to compare those stats with barbell lifts, so I won’t. Suffice to say; I started training 3 months ago, 5 days a week, and am still weak.

You're working out and that's good, but you will gain strength and size far more quickly if you join a gym and start lifting heavy weights. I would make this a priority.

At first Rollo was repulsive to me, his twitter presence was antagonistic - I didn’t appreciate his perspective. The first time I heard him speak, his voice was shaky, it was his first public appearance at 21 Con - was this the supposedly alpha guy whose opinion I was meant to respect?

While Rollo has a somewhat unique presence and demeanor, he's a real powerhouse in the Manosphere. I believe that video was also his first time speaking in front of an audience, as well as the first time he actually revealed his face to the world. No doubt he was nervous. He's far more relaxed in the various online videos I've seen.

I was raised by a single mother. She’d been around, had plenty of good chances for partnership, she chose to ride the carousel instead. As she was about to hit the wall she decided to have a baby. Disregarding the need of a quality father through the means of state enforced child support.

Unfortunately this situation is common these days.

Perhaps miraculously, the child gave her a sense of dread, a conviction of something that felt like sin. She found religion, healing, even a newfound innocence.

Ah yes, the born again virgin. This is also quite common today.

In some twisted turn of fate, the one child she didn’t abort (yours truly), was the one that possessed a genetic disposition towards a disability, the gene passed down from the father she happened to choose. I have the gene for stuttering. My father grew out of it, apparently. I didn’t. Mine only got worse. I am at the stage now where I typically can’t even say my name when introducing myself to someone new. I am the fallout of hedonism. The bearer of gutter genetics that natural selection has yet to eradicate. I flit between intense paternal instincts, and the moral urge not to breed at all. Not to spread this corruption that has/had reduced me to rubble.

I'm not going to say that the genetic part isn't a factor, as there seems to be quite a bit of evidence to support that. However from reading the way you wrote the part I quoted above, I believe you have made this a self-fulfilling prophecy in your life. In other words, you believe you are a stutterer, you believe there's nothing you can do about it, and your focus on it and worry over it just intensifies it. Knowing this is the first step to making a change. Here's a video of a man who tells how he grew up a stutterer, and how God worked in his life.

Obviously this decimates my SMV. However, I’ve swallowed the red pill, I cannot go back. Even if I cannot, or will not compete on the SMV, I will build myself to be the best I can. I will follow the masculine design set forth by the creator, and made flesh in Christ, the Lion of Judah.

This is good! You're seeing that change IS possible, and that's the first step to making meaningful change in your life that will take you where God wants you to go.

I lived off my family’s belief until I left the house, and my heart wandered for a few years even if I stayed in Christian community. My faith is now my own. I have deep conviction of Biblical truth. God as King comes as the easier relationship to me than Him as Father. I am exploring different denominations and their own professed faiths lately in an attempt to expand and solidify my own. I read, morning and evening, mainly the Bible itself, devotionals or Biblical studies.

Amen brother, this is what I wanted to hear! I'm fully convinced that reading the Bible daily, and reading it completely through every year, has brought about more internal change since I started doing it than all the other things I've done over the years since I trusted in Christ. Do you have a solid Bible reading plan? PM me if you like and I'll share the one I use.

I’ve had interest from others simply based on my looks. (I’m apparently good looking enough for the stutter not to matter to some, this one girl was a smoking hot Italian so that was a big confidence booster).

This is great that you can see past your perceived limitations to appreciate the opportunities in front of you.

Had a confession of interest from someone that would end up complicated logistically, so I turned her down. She’s hooked on certain aspects church-feminism, while still being maternal and somewhat open minded. So not great too begin with.

Awesome that you have the discernment to not just make any choice, but make the right choice!

My main area for growth is confidence, which the public speaking group I recently joined will likely help with.

This is a GUTSY move, one that I'm sure will pay off!

The Word is what created the heavens. God is a speaking being. We are made in his image. Stuttering is a deep perversion of what it means to bear the imago dei. It runs against the very essence of it.

Maybe........but think about this: God doesn't even need to speak for His power to be displayed. He could have simply thought about Creation and it would have happened.

And I also notice you don't stutter at all on here :) God does indeed work in mysterious ways.

helaughsinhidden · 2018-09-26T16:05:48+00:00

My company works over the phone selling, training, implementing, and supporting business software (ERP). Almost all of us work remote and spend most days talking on the phone for 3-6 hours a day. We also do onsite implementation and attend trade shows where we are talking all day long. One of my coworkers focuses on implementations. He stutters. Every sentence. Usually ever three to four words mess him up. He has accepted it at some point and just chose to ignore it and act like it's not there.

Funny thing is that he is called to speak for a living, but has a speech disorder. No doubt that shallow people might laugh or discount him, but at the level we are at, CEO's, CFO's, operations managers, etc absolutely everyone likes him. When I bring on a new client, I KNOW he will do great. God is actually using this to his advantage. Even though it's immediately obvious that it's there, you see John pushing forward without hesitation, apology, or even acknowledging that it exists. John is humble, brave, vulnerable, memorable, real, and present. You can't help but like him, relate to him, and remember him. He is single right now but on his facebook page, all the women in his pics are very very attractive by anyone's standards, so clearly he doesn't let it bother his game.

I myself am 5'7" and had concerns when I was younger about my SMV, although I didn't call it that. These things only matter to other people if they matter to you. Standing tall with the total package of what you are given and faithfully fulfilling the calling God has given you despite any real or imagined challenges is what we are called to do as men of God.

Consider Gideon in Judges 6:15 And he said unto him, Oh my Lord, wherewith shall I save Israel? behold, my family is poor in Manasseh, and I am the least in my father's house. Gideon was the smallest member of a poor family in a weak tribe, but God used him and 300 men to defeat the Mideanite army that was large enough to have 32000 captive women among them. Lesson? Don't come into agreement with putting limits on your worth or God's ability to use you.

BobbyMckee · 2018-09-26T16:34:46+00:00

Don't sweat the stuttering. It's hard to say, don't think about it - but I think if you own who you are and are confident then it doesn't matter. People see it but will accept it if you own it.

Like people say, maybe there is a way to get rid of it, if not that's fine. Serenity prayer.

The best advice I've learned in my short time here is "forget about the women". Just do your best to live your best life, i.e. be on a purpose (God given), get your house in order (finances, job, wardrobe), get into great shape, have a good social circle / hobbies that YOU like, study some game / RP stuff here, get involved at your church and be a leader. These are all things you do because you want to and you enjoy them. Then if a woman comes, great - if not, great. The woman is a compliment to your life - forget about passing down your genes or whatever, it's very zen in that if you don't focus on it - it's probably more likely to happen. Either way though, the woman isn't the focus.

I just prayed for you bro, good luck.

OsmiumZulu · 2018-09-27T14:14:24+00:00

Far less concerned about the stuttering than the lack of a real lifting program. Women can look beyond quirks like that if you have a high enough SMV (Do you think Mike Tyson struggled with attracting women?)

What is your plan to get into a real gym and do actual lifting?

Title	Introducing Myself
Author	__REDemption__
Upvotes	2
Comments	12
Date	September 26, 2018 2:01 PM UTC (7 years ago)
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