My mom raised me extremely beta, and my dad was barely a man letalone a father figure. My mom controlled the spending, decision-making, and hobbies of everyone. She dressed me up until 7th grade and I never belonged to any social circle growing up due to lack of social awareness. First time I found out people at my high school were having sex, was Senior year. Lol.

I just turned 21 and things have drastically changed for the better. I now dress myself. (joke)

For my 21st, I went to a small gathering at a friend's house and played some beer pong and talked to some buddies. I realized something there; my voice isn't deep and easily gets covered up by other sounds. I have to get real close to talk to you, and if I try to raise it, it sounds lame. I was raised to always please so I have this pussy soft voice. At the kickback it was frustrating trying to socialize and engage in conversation when my voice was drowned out so easily. I became frustrated and it is still one of my biggest insecurities.

Anytime a guy with a louder voice spoke, everybody seemed to pay attention to him rather than me.

I realized the way you sound is crucial in people's perception of you. If you have a loud deep voice, be thankful, and USE IT

On a side note: any advice on deepening the voice or making it louder?

TLDR: got cockblocked by a dude with louder voice