Hi guys,

I'm in a LTR with a girl since 6 months, were dating since one year.

Wonderful girl, intelligent, briliant, good relationship dynamics, same view on the path we want for our lifes, excellent sex life.

At the beginning of our relationship she wanted to talk about a one night stand she had with a coworker ( a guy that i know, not a friend, just somebody i see sometimes at work)

I told her that i don't want to know, don't ask don't tell. Anyway she kept speaking.

She told me that they had a drink, they want to her flat and fucked, after that they chilled one hour more on the couch listening to music.

She told me that the guy was a bastard in bed, wanted to fucked without condom, was rough, and that she had a bad moment, witouth pleasure, and that after that she never contacted him again.

I snooped trough her messages (i know i am an asshole) and found out that in fact, she sent him a text the next morning to know if they will meet again.

She told her friends that she wants to see him again, and that it is ok to fuck again if he want to fuck again.

The guy took 2 days to answer, and she never contacted him again.

She told me that she was upset that the guy didn't answer, but that the moment was really rough and bad.

So my question is, why if the moment was bad, that she had no pleasure, would she contact him again to fuck ?

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How to move from this lie ? What should i do ? She refuses to talk again about this subject.

Thanks