Well I just jerked off,blew a load big one ,haven't been working out or eating clean for about a week.Feel depressed(no surprise there) still a virgin at 20 (big surprise there).The rest of the world treats me in two ways 1 as though am invisible 2. With some slight degree of embarrassment and contempt. Some other dudes treat me as an object of pity. Am 5 foot 9 170 should be weighing 145. I can walk up to a chick start a conversation but don't know where to move from there. Funny thing life is easier now am in campus as opposed to my highschool which was a living hell for me. Really don't know what else to say Funnier thing,Am a law student so yeah it's kind of the great oxymoron you have a guy that has historically been known to be bad at standing up for himself expected to defend others.