Trying to do everything at once, understand everything at once is unreasonable and has led to decision paralysis. Interesting enough, I make decisions that effect thousands every day, yet in my own life I can't be quite as objective. That ends now.

Initiatives: Diet:Velocity diet for 30 days, test my mental fortitude and dedication. 5 days in(5'10"), from 181.3 lbs 23.8% BF to 177.6 22.6%

Gym: 2x this week, compound muscle workouts. weak sauce... see today's initiatives below for corrective measures.

Money: refused to pay for frivolous things for myself and my SO. When asked to pay 70$ for valentines day gift for her kid, counter offer with 10$, the most I'm willing to give which is all I want to give. 1 of 6 major debts paid off in full this week. I have an excel sheet that budgets my money for the next 4 years, including pay raises, taxes, ect. I've done weeks of research on the most effective way to reduce my debt as quickly as possible. I have highlighted every 2 months or so when a major CC or loan is paid in full, and refuse to allow myself not to meet those goals without a reasonable excuse that I would accept of one of my subordinates should they not have made a deadline. Punishment to myself for not having a good reason is 0 spending money following missed gate for 2 weeks and that spending money will be allotted to the debt I neglected. "Your grounded"

Sex: I get it when I want from the SO, usually is very active and fun, but I've decided no more masturbation. Not going to artificially reward myself for no hard work done any longer. Plus when I get turned on, the extra T in my body really makes me have a distinct edge of aggression to take what I want. Time to retrain my brain/body that release comes from sex only. If I want that release, there is only 1 path.

Women: Fuck them at this point. I've lived too long wondering and working how to get women to like me. I'm very experienced sexually with women, but in general I'm socially autistic. In college I had 13% bf, was 195lbs muscle... so that really did most of the work for me. In my current state, that isn't on my side anymore. I don't look horrible, but it doesn't work for or against me. Which leads me to my social inept self. At the moment, fuck even focusing on women, and never again focusing on "how do I get them to like me". I've got to build this temple from the ground up. This starts with social skills in general then eventually can be pointed to a less meaningful cause such as women. Right now, I need to focus on how to a) be assertive in my desires b) stand-up for myself c) stop being so damn scared of others opinions.

Hobbies: Stop being a chump and get back into boxing. I love boxing. I was beaten by my mother growing up consequently I have a huge fear of aggression because of deep seated fear of being hurt/powerless. This causes me not to let my inner man stand up for himself and instead I cower away. No More. I will get into competitive sparing within 6 months. I will complete a real fight within 6 months of returning from my deployment. I will abolish this fear, even though I get Adrenalin even writing this (evidence of its incredible undeserved power over me). I will also take piano lessons until I decide I don't like the piano, or I could learn better on my own. I love music and piano seems promising.

Education: Continue finishing my masters. Instead of giving it priority of whats convenient, make it Priority 2, only to be subordinated to real world military requirements.

Social: Instead of supplicating to everyone I meet, for the short term I will only open up to those who are pursuing me. I will express authentic emotion or though and nothing more. In class if I want to laugh, I will. If I want to speak, I will. If I think something is neat a girl is wearing I will say it, if a guy acts like an asshat I will call him out. I was locked into a room for several months at a time in isolation several times in my life. I need to learn being alone is not = to that. It is different in this situation and isn't to be feared. Hopefully self-isolation with the exception of pure authentic expression will teach me either a)being alone doesn't matter b)people will actually want to get to know me if I quit trying so hard. Second to this, I will in all attempts avoid being at my house. Study/Homework in public, weekends will be spent with friends out on the town or enjoying free/close-to-free public events or reading RP material in a public setting. None of these will include pressure to be social, just to be in society. After a certain comfort level is reached being my own island, I will begin studying Pick-up techniques a re-read how to win friends and influence people. I will start with low threat small talk with strangers and work my way up to people that matter to me and as such are consequently perceived as higher threat. At this time I will also add PUA as a goal set to practice. I hope to obtain OI by this time and the PU practice will be building more AbundMent. I find that the technique of getting someone to qualify to you absolutely frightening. Probably related to my fear of rejection and low confidence. I believe attempting PU will desensitize me to rejection and also allow for repeated attempts to get people to qualify to me instead of qualify myself to them. Most importantly, I hope that by this time I have a self image of the "Don Juan or Prince" as pook puts it, that allows for qualification to be natural. If not, I will seek appropriate advice.

Readings: no more audio books, ability to retain is little to none. Hard copies only. Expect to create each book as a teacher would who expects a book to be read by a certain time. I will break the book down into pieces and write thoughts along the way of reading. I will write a paper on my collective thoughts of the couple of chapters so either submit for philosophical discussion on askTRP or something of the sort. List goes something like this Finish book of pook reread for 3rd time WISNIFG reread for 3rd time NMMNG Letters of a stoic first time reading: the manipulated man This is all for now, I will take a while to chew these. between books I will reevaluate & ask advice on suggested next book based on group experience and my place in the journey.

Checklist for today (any information drops in this thread related would be appreciated to steer me in the right direction group wisdom is shown to be greater than individual self learned google searches after all):

Short term weight lifting: Find most ideal workout plan under current dietary constraints, create log book detailing what must be done at the end of every day.

Diet: determine realistic weight loss goals for 30 days and BF% end goal. Then map out new cut diet that allows for most aggressive workout plan for the 30-90 day mark. Take pictures of progress every day to have as a recording of what will power looks like. Long term weight lifting: figure out most reasonably obtained muscle mass capability without prohormones or un-natural introduction of T to my body. Set this as the end goal and map that goal to completion

Books: order hard copy of NMMNG (already have hard copy of WISNIFG)

Social: get a small notepad to be kept in my pocket at all times so I can keep tally of the moments I did vs did not use the material I am learning in the book I am reading. This will force me to continually check every social interaction against the book and if I followed it or not. This will create a hyper awareness that will drive me using the material more often. I will create a spreadsheet that tracks the did/did not ratio and create goals to reach of that ratio.

Tracking: If there is one thing the military has excelled in teaching me its that educated decisions cannot be made on feelings alone. Accurate recording of behavior will allow for more intelligent decisions to be made regarding my goals. It also allows for real time unbiased feedback that will highlight sticking points before they become a plateau. All goals will be mapped out in my excel budget in a separate tab and will be tracked at the lowest integer that allows for reasonable measurement of progress beyond random chance. For my diet this will be daily, for debt it will be bi-weekly, ect.

I have allowed my time and effort to be distributed among anyone who wants it. Its amazing how much free time I have to reach my goals if I think about only myself and what I want to accomplish.

Any advice or comprehensive wisdom to reaching my goals is appreciated.