Hey gentlemen.

I read this forum daily as it keeps me grounded, and it kept me from giving up to the void.

I want to share my story how I was beta buxed, then was alpha fux a month later.

First off, I am 33, 6'4", fit body, owned a business. With my girlfriend (I was smart enough to not marry), we had three young children and she begun acting "FUNNY".

She begun hanging out with this fat single mom friend from highschool to "paint" on her house she was working on, this turned from one day a weekend to three to four days every week or other week.

Her phone would be off during this time, and when I found out a few times they had gone out to a bar she went bezerk telling me I need to leave and accused me of spying on her.

Needless to say my spidey sense was tingling, and I could literally hear the voice in the back of my head telling me she was cheating on me.

Fast forward to January 26th she told me she was pregnant, and then the same day told me she was "going out" again, at that point I told her this whole thing was affecting my health, my business, and wasn't motherly.

She screamed in my face, broke a vase and told me to leave.

Which I did - I have never returned home sense.

Fast forward a month later - I am at the gym lifting weights, and I meet a woman who is an officer in USMC - very fit, and seems fun.

She tells me she is single, and gives me her #.

One night she calls me and tells me she is depressed, and needs to "feel" something.

She comes over, we have sex for a week straight no condoms and then she ghosts me.

A month goes by and she contacts me - telling me to delete all texts, facebook messages, and never tell anyone she met as she is pregnant and has a husband.

I check her Facebook now and then to see that indeed she is pregnant, and indeed she had a baby and it looks like my other children.

The most disgusting part? She has this guy feeding the kid a bottle, and taking photos as a happy family.

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I have to tell you boys, from seeing all this shit. I can never go back to the plantation or unsee things. It really wrecked me inside having this all happen and for awhile I was very suicidal.

I want to thank all of you for this forum, and your contributions to it because it literally helps me cope.