I have felt the need to keep to myself for a while now after going through a bad divorce and for the most part I've been at peace. For a while now going way back, my old group of friends were so insistent on me hanging out with them and wouldn't shut up about it so I finally decided to tag along and went clubbing last night.

Big. Fucking. Mistake.

The debauchery going on everywhere was some next level shit. Keep in mind I haven't gone "clubbing" for roughly two years now and I actually think it's gotten a lot worse with the white knighting, cuck behavior, men at the mercy of pussy, simping like no tomorrow with sluts in the making. I'm just in awe with all that is going on. Look at my friends briefly (all guys) and they seem to just blend in with the chaos. Simping themselves and putting these women at a pedastal. Typical blue pill stuff.

But the worst of the night happened not too long after. A super drunk chick (I'd say she qualified to be a solid 8 with my semi-tipsy goggles) comes on to me pretty strongly and takes me by hand to the corner of the dj booth. Immediately starts grinding super hard on my dick. At this point I'm like... "OK, this is nice I guess. Going to bust my nut and get the fuck out of this place." The thing is this chick proceeds to lift her skirt up about 3mins into the song, pulls down her panties and goes into my pants to grab what I would say was a semi hard dick. I'm just shocked right now. Clearly not prepared for this shit (obviously no condoms), I have to exercise mental restraint by putting my dick back to where it belongs. Safely in my pants. I was super horny but I'm not fucking stupid either but she wouldn't let up. Turns around, grabs my hand and let's me feel her up. She's super turned on (pussy felt moist) and smirks while once again trying to get my dick out. At this point I proceeded to bail completely with my super hard dick in tow. Heard girls giggling or whatever on my way out the club but didn't give a shit.

The entitlement of these females is amazing. I'm not even sure whether to call that rape because we all know what would happen had it been on the other foot. I just feel like shit to be honest. Haven't answered calls today or text messages from my guy friends either. I'm ghosting them completely moving forward.

I just think that without fundamental MGTOW knowledge, I'm unsure if I could have exercised such restraint last night. It was the prime position to get a chick pregnant with a lovely side of potential STDs due to how horny I was. These bitches I feel can be so manipulative consciously or subconsciously. Alcohol is not even a fucking excuse.

This has only instilled my resolve with avoiding women even further which might be very difficult due to being the typical chad lookalike (6ft, moderately doing okay in terms of finances for now and pretty jacked).