Here I am writing this. Currently unemployed, with only a few prospects for jobs due to mainly what i could call a low gpa...

Yea, I had game, oh boy did I have game. My frame was great, I had a large social circle, I was probably having sex with a new okay looking girl every month, had a part time job at school startup company, my gpa was 3.5 (engineering student) without even trying... If I was mgtow, and not just a red pill, pickup star... when she entered this high point in my life, I would have never let her destroy it all.

I just gave her my card the first time I met her, she did not even meet my physical beauty standards but of course I was friendly. She text me frequently and wanted to talk often, I didn't even make her one of my plates because I thought she was barely comparable to the plates I was spinning.

She was so nice, so nice, all those texts asking me about my dreams and all that... I just talked with her because she was feeding my ego. I did not see any of the early warning signs... I just rolled pass through all of them... I rolled right through them... She would act like she would die if I didn't respond within 4 hours. What I didn't understand was that she was slowly breaking down my frame, so that she could get into my life. (am just crying now as am writing this).

I used to follow a lot of the pickup community, but I tell you now... The PickUp community does not prepare you for women, they do not.

That girl slowly came into my life... she wanted to meet me in the library while I was studying, okay, soon I was the one who wanted to meet her in the library, reversal... I was always seeing other women, soon I became exclusive to her, I thought she was the nicest of all the other girls that were interested in me.

She then wanted us to be a secret, another big red flag, I run right through it, she wanted us to be a secret because she had an ex in the school, that reason changed to her brother/sister having friends in the school who check on her, to her parents not approving of me/of her dating.

Then she broke up with me in the middle of the semester, then I was depressed... my grades dropped that semester from a 89% in an advance biology course 1st exam to a D as a final grade, this was the same for courses that semester. I was so depressed I didn't go to my part time gig, I didn't finish my project there. They let me go. My student club wasn't getting responses for me, they let me go at the end. I only had like three close friends that I was still close to.

I killed everything I had worked for my first two years at college in one semester.

Whenever I moved on and was starting to move on she would come back be it at the beginning of the semester or towards the end. I took her back.

I wasted my college years on this girl, just about right to the end.

I finally told her fuck off... but I only realised everything she was now... she was just a parasite: she changed her major to mine I didn't mention that; always wanted previous exams for classes I took (there's a main reason girls do better than guys in college); I had some friends who she really met through me and she seems to be much closer to them, she admitted once to saying 'shit' about me. I sometimes felt isolated; not understanding she was the reason behind it.

PickUp community did not prepare me for this kind of woman. They always preach how being a PUA allows you to have your pick of women but they never make the simple the connection that women act really nice/ look their best until they lock as much commitment from a guy as they can, then they just feed off of him.

The only good thing that came off from this girl, was that she sent me mgtow earlier than most guys got a chance. I didn't go through a messy divorce or loose custody of my children, but I learnt early on in my life, women can destroy you and they will if you give them the chance. I was unable to launch my career as successfully as I wanted.

But now I see women from much truer perspective. Funny thing again I was reading books like Rational Male and Way of The Superior Man while in the beginning stages of this girl. These books have you fool yourself, you will ignore all the great advice in the books, until you go MGTOW and develop real discipline and make your life truly independent of/to a woman's affection, acceptance and access.

Before I found this subreddit, I planned on putting up a site ConfusedGuy.com to write and express my warnings to other men, but now I feel having read other stories here. I can bite the bullet and let it go.