Why am I still being tempted to sin even though I’m saved? How come life steers in the opposite direction of where I want to go?
For example, I don’t want to have sex with hundreds of women for the sake of lust. I want one women and to start a family. (Plenty more examples but chose this one)
So why doesn’t my life lead me to the right woman so I can do what is right? Wouldn’t it be much easier and noticeable for non-believers?
“Hey, this guy is always happy and looks successful and has a great wife and family. How did he get that? Oh he’s Christian? Maybe I should look into that”
Idk, just seems like no matter how much good I want to do. No matter how genuinely my heart wants to do great things and help others and promote the Great Commission, I’m stuck in the mud or go backwards. I’d pray about it and honestly don’t see the skies clearing up.
And I know Paul speaks of this same phenomena and about the thorn in the flesh and that Grace is sufficient.
It seems like God or life doesn’t want to cooperate with me. Isn’t it Gods will to promote Christianity? Doesn’t God want us to win souls and deliver people?
For the older people, could you maybe provide some personal testimonies on how life appeared to be foggy and then through time you realized how God was guiding you and helping you do more and do better?