I was raised from a very good background and i can thank my parents religion for that. As i grew up (23) i strayed away from that community along with a handful of friends and i feel like it was a massive mistake. The males i know that stayed and practised the religion are getting married very young to girls who are in the same circle. I shit you every girl is at minimum an 8/10 with great personalitys, good familys, dont smoke/drink and virgins. The males that marry these girls are classic bluepills and punching way above their weight but it doesn't matter since these girls love them regardless. Redpill does not exist in this religion, the few bad girls that are sluts left a long time ago.

If i just stayed in touch with the community i would be happy knowing my future is secured. But instead im smoking pot, chatting up sluts, visiting escorts and acting like a fuckboy instead. I've been reading redpill for a year and it's depressing living like this, i know alot of males love this lifestyle but i cant force myself to like it. If i could have one good girl and be bluepilled for her i would in a heartbeat. How do i move forward from these feelings? I feel like if stay redpilled i can never come back to this religion.