As I grow older and am nearing 40 years of age I realize I prefer to be alone and I don't want friends anymore. Is this normal? I just want to do my own thing.

I have had "friends" and I think they get in the way of what I want to achieve. When I got some financial and physical success my last buddies I realized they were trying to hold me back or sabotage me. One of them admitted being jealous and I blocked him after knowing the person for 20+ years.

I want to be alone as much as possible so I can do whatever the fuck I want and that is sports, reading books, making music and save/invest as much as possible.

Anyone here that resonates with me? I just don't give a fuck anymore about making friends or whatever. Fuck friends, especially the fakers. I quit with drugs, going out and quit gaming I want to be serious with my life. Most people only want to get drunk, party or whatever I have grown out of it.

I just want to go somewhere some nice island, or live in the mountains something peaceful far away from most people. I love being alone too much it's dangerous.