Okay, don't laugh at me guys, but i had a 7 month relationship with a girl. It was by far the best plate / relationship i ever had. Unfortunately, i wasn't aware of red pill and i fucked up badly. She ended things out of the blue. I was heart broken, made all the mistakes , begged for her back, stalked her tried to talk to her etc epic fail.

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Anyway took me a very very long time to get over this girl. It's been 1 year and i feel like i'm finally over it. I don't think about her as much anymore/can't remember things about her etc.

But i still have many regrets. I guess the thing is it's hard as a male getting laid and getting plates. That' s truth. 80/20 rule, etc. Got to try so hard just for some average pussy sometimes it isn't even worth it. I'm sure some other guys can relate. If i was given the option, i'd probably prefer a relationship right now. But i go on dates with girls and sex other girls and spin plates but they just don't give me the same feeling / buz / connection like my ex did. I've learnt to accept this. But what makes it hard is that i wish i were to meet her now. As i'm a different man, i'm aware of red pill, i have a better frame, i know if i were to meet her now my relationship with her would be so different and better.

And last time i did stalk her she was with a guy who had less SMV than me.

Just have so much regret. Kind of think to myself what could of been? combined with the fact some nights i'd rather just jerk off or spend it alone than date or hang out with my average plates. I really kick myself... like i had a good girlfriend who i liked, who was good in bed, who i was compatible with (hard to find) and I lost it.