EDIT: I'd like to hear from as many of you as possible, what do you think? And when you run into LVM what's your power move?

Hi Queens, I am a feminist and a former pickme. This year I have been getting over three assaults for the main part and unfortunately fell into the hands of of LVM. Long story short, because of my emotional and mental situation I was very weak and got inextricably attached to this LVM, I'll call him Tom. Tom ended up lying to me about where he was and I uncannily ran into him. He walks in with three or four beautiful chicks, I am burning with embarassment. He apologises (because he was caught duh) but never owns up that he lied, but made excuses. I blocked his ass then. But I was a weak bitch and tried to smooth it over, I missed him so much and it was so sudden. So I have been shamefully on and off contact, and I feel I just lost respect for myself and he probably can't talk me seriously now either. Everytime I went NC and said it was the last time, he had the "We'll see" attitude.

I am NC again since mid November. How do I get my power back? When I started with him I very unknowingly was a FDS chick in most ways, and he was around my finger. And I feel incredibly lame and weak now. How do I get the upper hand and the respect again? You know where he looks at me and forgets the weak bitch and tries to get my attention?