after seeing posts on here about porn sickness in men, i decided to stop watching porn cold turkey about two months ago. long story short, ive developed a greater love for my body and my relationship with my sexuality is slowly but surely improving!

i was exposed to porn and masturbation at about 9 or 10; i was taken advantage of as a child and that instance led to hypersexuality. at 22, porn is my only frame of reference for sex as i’m still a virgin, so you can only imagine how warped my view of sex was/still somewhat is. i developed an extreme hatred for my body, unrealistic expectations for sex, and a reliance on porn to orgasm/turn myself on.

i turned to more violent porn when “regular” porn failed to do its job; i’m embarrassed to admit that i found myself in “forced”, “kidnapped”, and extremely racist categories. not only was i brainwashed into believing that a man being violent towards me was a turn on, my self image as a young black girl was that i was nothing more than a fetish. i had come to accept that i’d never be a trophy to anyone.

i will admit that i use audio porn, however my goal is to eventually cut porn out entirely! after twelve years of porn consumption, especially during such formative years, i sometimes fear that i will forever be affected. i can’t pin point how due to my lack of sexual experience, but i do fear that it will come back to haunt me.

for the time being, i really recommend that any women on here cut porn out of your lives. your libido, body image, and love for yourself will improve so much! you truly don’t know how much it affects you until it’s gone.