And it's hurting my progression to the point where I can't leave the house or not text every hour in fear of her trying something.

Check my post history & I've mentioned this before, I've had to leave my job, and I've wasted months, We have only been together for 3 months and I've dealt with suicide threats, and stuff like this.

The original goal was to ghost but I fear her taking her own life So I basically live in fear.