I'm a good looking guy, I work out 5 days a week, have good grooming and hygiene, wear nice clothes... yet despite everything I do, it feels like it's never good enough to women.

If I talk to girls in person, it always comes to "I have a boyfriend". Literally. It's all I ever hear. I haven't ended a face-to-face conversation with a girl I'm interested in in over a year that didn't end, positively or negatively, with the exact phrase "I have a boyfriend".

On dating apps, it's a joke to even believe anyone can ever even take the 5 seconds to answer a message. My Tinder wall looks like I'm writing a book to myself. Dozens of matches without a single reply. It's unreal.

I got one girl I knew from years ago to hit me up a few weeks ago, saying how excited she was to see me, how she was going to rip my clothes off, etc. So we meet and hang out, we do the deed and she tells me how great it is and that she wants me to hang out again. I never heard from her again. Ghosted on every platform. It's actually what prompted me to write this.. I finally thought I had someone interested in me, and then they block me out of their life like I'm some sort of disease.

What is wrong with me that prompts this response from every woman I meet? How does someone go from saying how happy they are to hang out with me to pretending I don't exist like a light switch? Why does every girl in real life reject me like I'm some sort of un-dateable freak? How come I can't get a single girl from a dating app to even acknowledge I exist? This is from someone who's read everything on the sidebar, has lived with the red pill for 6 years now, and it feels like I still just amount to nothing when it comes to women.

Beyond the feeling of constant rejection, it makes me wonder why I even spend so much time and effort doing things like working out, grooming, taking care of my diet... no one else seems to care or even notice so why should I? I know I shouldn't let my self worth be determined by what women think of me, but man it's pretty hard to not get depressed and feel like your life is worthless when every single person on every single medium is telling you without words that you're worthless.