My ex and I still have family outings every other week so our sons (8 and 5) can see us getting along and feel like a family for a short time (It was 2 years ago yesterday that she told me she wanted a divorce and to me it felt like it came out of nowhere. She was having an affair and I won't go into the nitty gritty details but she had total contempt for me and my sorrow). Anyway, skip ahead 2 years and one day and I am so mad at myself for still having pangs of jealousy when she is stopping every 5 minutes to text some man she met on a dating website. I have had no luck at all in getting a woman to so much as talk to me for more than a week. And that's not mentioning I have not gotten a single match on a few of the sites I am on. She epitomizes my view of sexiness which is probably why I still have these feelings. I fucking blows because I don't even want her back (she totally screwed me over and I could never let that go) but I still have feelings for her, which is probably why I get quiet or hostile. Ugh. Sometimes I feel like I'm broken.