I don’t know what to do. My support showed up later that night after she was put in front of a judge. She struck my face and knocked off my hat and glasses scratching my face then I called police. I felt bad that I called and filled out a vague police report in hopes of well I don’t know what anymore. She was returned to my home after 3 hours and stayed calm until my support left today. She’s been constantly telling my kids she did nothing wrong and that I’m “the piece of shit who just causes drama and tried to get her out of the picture.” I don’t know what to do and I can’t just leave. She’s in total control of my life essentially and was told by a lawyer that the judge rarely if at all signs protective orders for men. I’m constantly emotionally and verbally abused by her and just thought until now that it’s my fault and I need to change. I don’t want to leave so I can protect my kids from her and be the calm from her storm.