So, the reason i discovered the red pill was because my ex whom i have a kid with dumped me.

Now after 2 years i know she did the right thing. I was emotionally abusive and i hate myself for how i was.

But I found trp from searching the net for how to get her back.

I then found all the dating stuff and consumed abit, and felt some peace inside, cause some of the advice seemed to be true. My ex dumped me and fucked around with new guys quickly after, and some other stuff seemed true. But now i feel i have lost myself.

The opinion i now have on women isnt my own, the way i act isnt my own, its all something i got from those red pill guys, and i frankly dont like it.

I remember when I was 14-15 i got with the girl i set my eyes on, i was able to go on long walks, where there would be no awkward silence, only good convo, and good laughs. I could escalate correctly into sex, i did alot of stuff right, and that was before i read anything about seduction, i was just living.

Now im so in my head that i dont know how to do anything regarding women. Back in the day i had the benefit om going to school so i was exposed to girls all the time, but now im a recluse, fat and bald with no social life, at 30 years old with a 5 year old kid, i feel like a failure.

If i cant learn stuff from the red pill, my answer is, how do i unlearn shit, and start to act natural based on instinct ?

How do i learn women skills and everything else i thought i would get from the red pill