We've been living together for a year, and while that may not seem like a long time, we've technically been together since early 2014. A series of events happened that led us to breaking up for 4 months and then getting back together when I moved to the US. Since our long-distance relationship was rocky, he chooses to solely count the time we've been living together as our relationship.

He pays for everything; bills, rent, groceries, nights out, vet' bills, etc. I pay for nothing except my plane tickets back and forth, which can be somewhat expensive depending on the season. I don't have a lot in my savings due to poor choices. Still, I'm going to have to return in early December to keep this relationship in person. He's all right with me staying away for a month or longer, but I'd like to be back as soon as possible.

Yesterday he said marriage isn't something he thinks about because we don't have a healthy relationship. We argue over small things and they escalate. Not often (to me) but about once every three weeks. Some words he said were "I don't want to be accused of leading you on," and "We need a healthy relationship first and then we can consider marriage." I want him to be my husband, RPW. We get along the majority of the time and we really clique. We've gone through hell to be here together and I don't want to give it up on him not proposing to me right off the bat because there is truth to what he says.

I don't want to return to Home Country. There isn't anything for me there. I don't even know who I'd live with. Parents are both financially in the gutter and I don't want to burden other more distant family members. This is where I want to be. I just wonder how long I'll have to travel back and forth before I get his seal of approval. It feels like I'm living one big test and if I react poorly to a situation, the possibility of marriage moves further away.

I'm not perfect, I acknowledge that. Last night's argument ensued after I accused him of not being "into" pleasuring me because a) he looked exhausted, and b) he asked "Are you close?" in an annoyed fashion. That's what set it off. It would've been better off being shrugged off. Anyhow, right after that conversation I said "You don't love me," which offended him deeply. He left the room because he says he does A, B, and C for me to show he loves me and I don't appreciate it. The argument spiraled into 6--yes, 6--hours of arguing.

I don't know what I'm asking for here. I feel stuck. And I don't know what I'll do when the money runs out and we're still not married. He won't pay for a plane ticket because he says he pays for everything else and that's my responsibility.

I feel hopeless and worried. I need tips for improving myself/the relationship so we can move toward marriage. It's all I want out of life. Otherwise, I'm screwed. It's either this and happiness, or Home Country and misery.