I recently got a new office job. I have a love/hate relationship with it. Impossible quotas to fulfill, but it's the best-paying job I've ever had - which is sad, because it's not even that great of pay. It's just livable.

So, today. I woke up early, so early I cut back on sleep and had to drink two cups of coffee to make it through the day. Why? Because I got up to make food for a potluck we were having. It's something that, at least for me, that we do because we all hate the damn place and this is a way to make it slightly more bearable. So, yeah, it's mostly plain, but I add some spices and shit to make it a bit more unique. While people are eating it, I'm looking around and watching, because I rarely cook. I hate cooking. But this was one of the few times I did and I tasted it at home and thought it was nice. I wanted to see if others liked it.

One girl stares back for a moment and yells, "DO YOU HAVE A STARING PROBLEM?" I say without hesitation, "Yes." Because at first, I thought she was just being silly or sarcastic. It was after that I realized that, no, she was actually pissed. Now, that alone would make her seem nuts, but the real reason...

She constantly wears these low-hanging shirts. I'm not going to say that what you wear gives me a right to do whatever, or that it's an invitation or something stupid. But I can't help it. I even intentionally avoid them about half the time to not do it, like sitting alone at break. But she wears these shirts that shows off her chest and I just look without thinking, realize I am doing that and then shift my gaze to the ground or stare at my cup of coffee and stir it idly. Again, I don't want to say what you should or shouldn't wear, but you should accept the consequences of your choices, including your choice of clothing. It's not fair to blame me for something I literally biologically cannot help and even take conscious efforts to avoid.

I've felt like shit all day because of her little outburst. I think one person asked me how I made some of the food just to try to make me feel better, I figure she saw that I was upset about it...