Beginning of December i am going to Amsterdam with a few guys for the week and im tired of being a mental cel so i might just do extreme exposure and just go straight to an escort. I'm in the uk, escorts are legal here but idk just doesnt feel right to go here in my home country. Might just pump my self with alcohol and drugs whilst im there and just go and do it. see if it helps me.

Dont think the guys would participate but fuck them i guess, might go on a sneaky one just so that they dont start saying shit to me lmao.