5 weeks into separation… just an update

Figured I’d check back in.

It’s been about 5 weeks now. I have not spoken to her in 2 weeks, and honestly that has helped a lot. Waking up is getting easier. Sleeping is a little better too. Still not great, but better than it was.

Physically I guess I got my “summer body”… just not the way I wanted. Dropped 20 pounds in 5 weeks. Down to 208. Been lifting every day and basically living on protein shakes. Not ideal, I know. Just do not have much of an appetite.

House is up for sale. Been 4 days, already had 7 showings. All communication goes through the agent, which has made things a lot cleaner.

Big life change too I landed a new job. Honestly an amazing opportunity. That one hit weird though. I should have been celebrating… but instead it just felt kind of empty not having a partner to share it with.

On the practical side, we have an ironclad separation agreement in place. No financial games. And given the infidelity in NC, alimony is not a factor. So at least that piece is straightforward.

My son is doing great. Crushing it in college. That is something I am really proud of and trying to stay focused on.

Had a moment yesterday one of my friends started going off about her. I stopped him. I said I do not wish anything bad on her… but I do not wish anything good either. I just do not wish anything. I need to focus on myself and my son. Her life is not my concern anymore.

That said… I am just sad.

I can feel myself moving through the stages. I am close to acceptance. Really close. But I still slip back into bargaining sometimes. And anger. It just does not last long anymore. It all kind of settles back into sadness.

Not sure what the point of this post is. Just putting it out there.

Appreciate everyone who has reached out before.