Guys I am barely surviving.

This has been going on for 5 years. at first, I was working out, hanging out with friends, the mental impact was very low and I was able to manage stress.

However after 5 years of non stop legal fights, my bank account is negative, my metal tank is empty. I am in a remote place just to be near the kids. far away from family and friends. the closest person I know if 14 hours away. I can't find energy to wake up anymore. let alone do work. when kids are not around, I just stay in my bed all day vaping and watching tiktok till I pass out. I barely can afford food. I eat every other day. no energy, can't go to the gym, depressed. I don't even know how to get myself out of this. I have a huge debt. my ex keep pushing in court. I don't have a lawyer anymore. and I am pro se. the court isn't very sympatric to pro se.

This look like a dead end to me. I want to quit vaping, become happy and active but I keep relapsing.