Coming up on a full year of me having 'Temporary' full legal and physical custody. My now 7- and 9-year-old have not seen their mom for a full Calander year. Trial ended last May, and yet the judge still hasn't given a final order. Not that it really matters.

For me, I have more peace then ever and I'm able to reach a new level of being a father. I'm also at a snail of pace with focusing on building my business which is helping me provide for my kids. For my kids, they are sad and they miss their mom. At the same time, they are thriving socially, academically and are happy.

For the first time in 5 years, I've been able to focus more on building then fighting.

With that being said, my Ex continues to file appeals in different courts. She is filing motions in foreign jurisdictions. She has filed in federal jurisdictions. Her Ex-Boyfriend is Sueing her for deformation (they met after we divorced). I found out she has spent money on getting a lawyer to represent her in her appellant case on family court matters, and she paid a lawyer to represent her in our lawsuit against her ex-boyfriend. This my Ex's like 15th lawyer in 5 years.

I'm not worried she is going to have legal success. The wild thing is, she could see her kids anytime with supervised visitation and has refused to do so. These legal processes are a pain in the butt and do take time. Recently she filed a complaint against my license, which again, is going nowhere, but still takes time and does cause stress.

The point I'm trying to get to is my Ex is relentless, she constantly is filing things and harassing me.

Now comes the part where I'm considering filing for child support against her. My understanding is there are some institutions in states like Virginia that will help you get child support from kid's parents. That I won't have to get a lawyer, they'll do it.

My fear is of kicking the hornet nest and activating my Ex. This will be a huge insult and slap in the face to her. When we were married she constantly kept in the marriage with the threat of 'You'll never see your kids, and you'll owe me $2,000.00 in a month in child support." She'll be offended. And when she is offended; she'll go on the attack. Either with more legal stuff or will try to harass me. I do have a CPO against her, but it's sometimes hard to enforce. Not everyone believes that a man can be harassed and stalked. Her Ex. Boyfriend ran into this when cops laughed at him when she broke into his house. So I don't always feel protected.

She has had me locked up on false charges two times. I still have nightmares of her showing up out of nowhere and she starts screaming 'HE HIT ME! GET HIM OFF ME.' And then I'm arrested and back in jail. She also did this to her Ex. Boyfriend and his Ex. Girlfriend.

Then again, I don't want to live in fear. So far, over the last year, I've made it through every hurdle she has thrown at me. Part of my thinking is that, obviously trying to ignore her and just continuing to play defense isn't working. She is just always going to be playing offense. So maybe it's time I go on the offense and file for child support. I know I'll never get any money from her. But maybe it gives her something to be distracted from.

What are your thoughts? Should I go after her for child support?

I can say that I'm very happy! So excited for Life. I can feel myself feeling 'awe', 'curiosity', and believing in a future. I can't believe I made it throw the madness. Still scared at times it could all kick up again. Then again sitting in that fear, only shits on today.