Hey all, its done.

I moved back in with my parents, and sold the house. Still trying to adjust. I honestly don't understand my mental state right now. I feel "ok"? Like better than I have in months. But I'm also aware that I am extremely depressed, in a way more so than i have been, weand still not sure why I'm still here. I'm extremely sad and have been having a hard time not thinking about how fucked my life is now and how angry i am at my ex for cheating on me, leaving me for the other guy, and how angry I am that I don't see a future for myself. I havent been able to cry in over a week. I almost had to pull over when driving my cats to my new space but since then I haven't even been able to force myself to cry. I genuinely don't know what's wrong with me. I'm able to acknowledge that I'm am depressed and I am struggling and I hate my life right now and I'm angry that my ex did this... but I don't "feel" it like I did 2+ weeks ago. I feel like my emotions are just broken.

Not sure if anyone has a similar story. Or understands and can explain whats going on with me. Is this it getting better? Is this worse? Am I going to have a monumental melt down at somepoint? Anything to help me clear my mind would be appreciated.