I just feel like shit today. We'll be finalising our divorce in May and I've been down after ACL surgery, I'm now off the crutches but I still can't do much as the knee is still very fragile. I've been working on a documentary edit, but today just feels heavy to wind up the edit, I've launched the software about 4 times, sat there, creative thinking to execute the edit just feels so slow and heavy. For a couple of months life has been moving so slow, wake up, no plans or what I planned to do simply feels very difficult, at times I'm happy l, especially to the fact that the abusive relationship is over, but I'm still abroad waiting to finalise, no friends, and trying to figure what my next life will be... My freelance film business hasn't been going so well lately, so that also brings in some fear for the near future.