I've been on here and posted a lot. I've been in the anxious state and wondering where my life was headed since I was waiting for my wife to basically tell me if she wanted it to work. Well I filed and holy shit do I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Is it sad, yes. Have I cried, I have alot. But I haven't cried once since we filed. I am honestly so surprised at how not as sad I am since I feel like I was being tortured waiting for a response which I felt I knew in my gut the whole time for two months straight. I'm not sure where anyone who reads this is at in this shit, but know that sometimes filing instead of waiting for someone who doesn't want to put in the effort in return and be waiting in limbo is not worth it. You deserve someone who wants to be with you and wants to love you. Don't let someone be the source of your joy. You can be happy and I'm sure you were happy before you even met this person. Do what you have to do do find peace with yourself and happiness in your life.