Next week i hope to be signing the seperation papers officially. This will put in motion my new mortgage(buying her out) and allowing us to move on separately. This has overwhelmed me this past week. Depression has set in that ill soon have no one, while yea we are already living seperate lives we raise our kids together and theyve stayed with me while she gets her life together with her new man. I on the other hand have fallen into a deep depression that has been burried in me for a while. My wife is gone, i miss being a husband, i miss have help around the house, the trips to costco together, the quiet evenings at home on the couch and someone to wake up next to and feel like i matter to.

I feel like im in such a bad place. How do i get through this?