Just some thoughts here, I started deleting her photos and even threw away a plant of hers Ive been holding onto for over a year and every time I do something like that it gets a little better. She left and has been living her life while keeping a tentacle on me, as for me I spent the last year mournful and self destructive. This summer Ive been truly motivated for the first time in over a year and I find that I miss myself more and more than I miss her. She made me always feeling on edge and walking on eggshells, to put it simply she made me feel bad about myself and never supported me when I did anything positive not just for myself but “us” in fact she almost seemed angry every time I did something positive or when something positive happened to me. Honestly I can’t go back to that, I just want to live in peace and tbh women these days are terrifying lol, I got off easy (so far) compared to some of the horror stories I’ve heard.