We went to counseling for the first time in a year or so. What u found is she had the same mind set n thoughts as when we separated. Months ago. I am holding onto very little hope that things can change or be improved. Her recollection of context and events are not mine. We are both reading books from different authors. Difficult subjects. It’s hard. Maybe this is the end? I prayed for God to grant me a cup not full in order to take in all that counseling had to offer. I have very little hope for our marriage … also I’m drunk now. Jameson on ice