Not as bad as I thought I would. My STBXW said this isn’t working and said I should stay with her until I found a place. I’ve opted to leave and take care of my sick parents while I save money.

Only been married 4 years and the last 1.5 years have been ridiculous. We don’t have kids together I don’t have any myself and she has 2 adult children. We also don’t share any assets. She’s been violent towards me and said I don’t support financially, as I paid almost all the bills. She called me abusive for holding her accountable, still don’t know how she came to that conclusion. I’ve left twice before and this is my final time leaving. Now that I am in process of getting a no contest divorce she says she doesn’t have money for fees. This is after shopping for new clothes and buying food and having the ability to save thousands of dollars due to my help.

While I love her, I know I can’t be with her any longer. I’ve been mad and sad before it came to this point but now I’m just relieved and sometimes confused by comments she made during this ordeal. She says that she needs me in a way that isn’t obvious. Wtf does that mean even mean? My question is, when will I feel mad or sad about this? I just feel relieved and sometimes confused.