Hello all

Short version of my separation/divorce.

I’m a 39m who was married to a 33f for 8 years with a beautiful 4 year old daughter.

Everything I thought was perfect and that I was doing all the right things a husband should. Worked hard all day, would come home at lunch to see my wife and daughter, couldn’t wait to be done work to come home and spend the evening with them. I don’t drink or do drugs, don’t have much of a social life. Just worked everyday to support my family and spend as much time with them as I could. I loved every minute of my life, every minute.

I thought we were going through a dip in our marriage since the spring but hey it’s the first one and everything will be ok. Fast forward to September and she wanted a divorce. It broke me as a human being, broke me. All I ever wanted in life was a family and I thought I had the perfect one. I couldn’t envision a day without my wife and certainly not without my daughter.

What made everything worse was within maybe two weeks, my wife was out for “walks” late at night which I found out she was actually out with another guy.

My wife since the spring has become a completely different human being and that’s actually what hurts the most. She was the most caring, compassionate, trustworthy, putting everyone else’s needs above hers person I had ever met. And all that was gone. She became so untrustworthy as I caught her in one too many lies, clearly she didn’t give a shit at all for my feelings anymore and it’s very obvious that she is number one now during this process.

Almost 4 months later and I’m still trapped in this house with her with no end in sight. I hate every single day as I still love her and she clearly has zero feelings for me. She walks around here like there is absolutely nothing going on. Right from day one she’s been like that. She’s never missed a day of work, never missed a beat at all.

We are still working with the lawyers (she is very clearly dragging her feet in the process) for the separation agreement and if I’ll be able to keep the house or not.

Why do I still love my wife after everything she has put me through? Anyone else has to endure living for months on end during a separation with someone they still love but cant trust at all?