To today is my birthday.our divorce was final the 1st.I thought that I was doing good and dealing with the thought of me not spending christmas with our children we spit christmas.but she call me to tell me that she wants to take the kid's and spend time with them at a Airbnb to start their own tradition .and what really got to me was the fact that I wanted for us when we was married to do our own thing together. But I give up christmas with my family for hers.and when I said something about it she go's im sorry I know that's what we wanted to do. Then she tried to back out of it.so I told her not to disappoint our children because you have already told the oldest. I just don't understand that i done everything for her what ever she wanted. I guess that I never will understand. I trying to let it go,but I let myself get pulled back in from the i want her back to the anger of her leaving and the sadness of being alone and a single dad. I have the kid's. 20years just gone. I know that it's going to get better. But it's a long road