Thought I'd post this for catharsis or something.

I'm on here a lot, and a big part of the reason I'm so invested in redpill stuff, despite never having been redpill, is my father. He is 56 now. I haven't personally seen him in years, but from what my sister has said he is still as redpilled as ever.

I'm a woman, and let me tell you, it really sucked to be raised by this fucking guy. I don't think I ever really came to see him as my father. He's now separated from my mother (who by the way, was not his "primary girlfriend"), and in fact, has now separated from his "main gf" of many years (like 27 years, so basically his wife) because "she's too old." This woman literally worshiped him, and he threw her away because she's "too gross to fuck now." Even though that bitch threatened to kill my mom like twice, I still feel so bad for her I could cry. She, like my mother, was abused as a child, and my father took advantage of that. He's a master manipulator. I'm sure he's on redpill forums, and is probably a major contributor. By the way, he's fucking unemployed right now, yet he has taken the redpill so hard that he genuinely believes he should have tons of young women (around my age) wanting to be with him.

I don't even want to talk about the emphasis he placed on my appearance from a young age. I believe he genuinely cares about me and loves me to this day, but that isn't enough. If you fill your child's head with the most fucked up shit from day one, to the point where probably no amount of therapy could save them, it isn't enough to say you loved them. He wasn't equipped to raise a child, especially not 2 daughters.

Anyway, this maybe isn't the most constructive post, but I really felt the need to share.

*Edit*: Oh yeah, I just wanted to mention this other really fucked up thing. Apparently, my father's "main gf" and my sister had built up something of a relationship, not super close, but she couldn't have kids so my sister was kind of like the closest she would ever have to a child. And then my father stopped seeing her... Just to give you an idea of how completely and utterly he doesn't think about anyone but himself.

*Edit 2*: Also, do you have any idea how paranoid my father's redpill shit has made me about my own future? I'm in my early 20s and I'm already starting to feel "old." A part of me fully expects my husband to leave me or start fooling around the second I hit 40 (if not earlier), or if I gain weight, or anything, really. I've fully resigned myself to that "truth," whether it be one or not. I've never been in a relationship and I feel like I'm "missing out on the only time in my life a man could truly be attracted to me." It makes me sick to think about...

*Edit 3*: This is a really funny one, imo. So, when I was really little, my dad used me as a "prop" when he tried to "pick up chicks," like "oh, I'm such a good father (lol right), I love kids, etc etc." And a lot of the time (from my perspective as a little kid) he would start talking to the woman, and then she would get really cold and irritated, with almost an air of bitter loathing, and walk away "all of a sudden". And I was always left wondering wtf just happened, because I never saw that particular set of behaviors and facial expressions in any other context. Obviously now I know why they got so upset like that, but when I was a kid I did not know what the fuck was going on. It pisses me off so much that he was doing that. It's just so transparently manipulative. He really has zero respect for women and only sees them as a means to an end.