So, I've posted a few times here, you can look up my bio if you're interested in the whole story, so long story short: I left the redpill last year and started attending therapy and dating other girls. I ended up meeting who would be my first girlfriend. I really loved her, we matched as soon as we met, but our relationship wasn't all roses. Due to work and school, there were times where I wasn't giving her much attention and I also had a couple of jealousy episodes, we talked it out and I started improving in those aspects. I failed in a situation which I think was crucial: she was having an anxiety attack and I couldn't go with her due to both work and school. I tried to talk to her but she didn't want to see me all week. I said "fine, I understand it, she needs space". We agreed that I would call her on Monday in the morning to know if she was awake and visit her, and so I did. I got no answers and told myself "ok, I think she may be awake but wants me to visit her, let's see". I came to her play, the door was open and... I found her hugged by the hips by a Colombian guy we met at work and whom we suspect is a con man while listening to romantic music (he's literally an actor, studied acting in the past and she also hosted him for a week while we searched for a host family. We've had issues with him because of some incongruences we've seen and because he tried to approach other women from work). I also found a bottle of lube that was almost full but I looked and it was used already. At first I was like "ok, she told me he was gay and such" and it was going to be his last day here, so I accompanied them to the bus station. After arriving home, I discussed this with her and told her I didn't trust her anymore, she told me the guy was gay and such, and that I shouldn't worry because she expected me to not come and I was like "WTF, I CALLED YOU TWO TIMES, TWO!!! YOU BASICALLY HAD THE PHONE BY THE SIDE". She came up with this story that he was gay and such and he was just hugging her like that because they were just besties, like lil brothers and I'm like "hmmm yeah he just came a month ago". And about the lube, she justified it by saying she bought it form him to use it with other guys. She then cried and told me she would miss all the things we did together and my family and such. I also cried and threw everything off my chest. We ended the relationship in the best terms I guess, as friends. Now I'm feeling bad, I feel I've been manipulated emotionally. I've asked some people on advice just to get some other perspectives and everyone agrees she cheated on me or at least there was something strange going on, things that don't really add up. It's my first serious relationship after leaving the Redpill. I trusted her many times. Now I don't know if I can trust relationships anymore, or why did I attract her into my life. I really loved her but now I know I have to let her go. Any advice to feel better?