I NEED TO RANT. These things are on my mind and they're bothering me and i need to get them off my chest and share them with someone.

I broke up with my boyfriend months ago but haven't been dating because of Corona and working out my emotions. I was with my ex for a very long time and this is my first time dating as an adult (29F). There are some total fuck-ups on my part that i'm going to list, but i'll add what i learned from it. In the situationship that just ended and only lasted 2 weeks, I learned a lot about my boundaries, what i want in a man and what i will not tolerate next time. Maybe they'll benefit another woman out there so we can stray as far as possible from ever being a Pickmeisha.

I wasn't looking, he found me. He lives next door to me with his parents. His family left Cuba when he was child and moved to Florida and then here, so I overlooked the living-with-parents thing. Since he lived so close, he'd know when i'm at home and it'd be so easy for him to come over and end up spending the night, then all his stuff is right next door to get ready and leave in the morning. - I will never mess with someone that lives next door to me/works in my company/can't be sent away when i'm done. Now i'm gonna see this idiot at my house/safe place. I will never overlook a guy living with his parents, no matter the circumstances. They have a whole different mentality and i require more.

The first night he came over, we kissed a minute and he touched me and then was like "Get on top" over and over. I did because i was excited to have sex after so long and he's attractive but i wasn't warmed up or really ready. Yet i spit on his dick and sucked it for a minute to get it wet. Ugh. - I will never take things fast like that again. No sex/my house the first time we hang out, and no one will ever skip foreplay again. I'll put my foot down and set i'm not ready yet. I will also never undress myself. Im the present, you undress me.

We were supposed to go to his friends house one night and drink, but he ended up getting drunk early and lost his phone. I sat around at my house on a Friday night wondering what the hell is going on. The next day he made it up to me by going to get ice cream. - I will never be stood up again. First time it happens, they'll never hear from me again. I looked past it for fucking ice cream? Am i that damn desperate?

I told him the reasons why it didn't work out with my ex, how i wanted to move on and where my feelings stood on it. At the time it felt nice because he was giving me good advice on how to manage it and move on. - I will never share personal details about my feelings or life until i've completely vetted someone and trust them. Now he knows more about me than i'd like for him to.

He told me about his goal of working in real estate and getting a bunch of money so he can retire by 40 and whoever is with him will get to live a great life. He borrowed $20 from me one day for gas money. ,e went out for drinks one night with his friends and i paid for my own drinks, wtf. - I will never lend money to any man again. This idiot revealed to me that he lives check-to-check. Whoever is with him will get to live a great life? Hmm, okay.

I have a good job that is stressful, i'm in school working towards my Bachelors and i own my own home. - I will never be with someone that doesn't meet my standards. Even i know that i want and could do better for myself so i better be with someone who is doing the same or preferably...a whole hell of a lot better than me.

He always said the "school isn't for me, it's a scam" bullshit. Fine, it's not for you but i'm in school so don't ever try to take away my motivation. This is a hard no for me. Don't support me going to school and I will nope you all the way to Nopesville.

He also wasn't supportive of my job either. I work from home, enjoy my job and it requires a lot. Fine, come over for lunch but leave at 2 like i said. One day i finished work early and he came over 30 min before i was going to clock out. We started messing around on the couch and he was licking my pussy. It was time for me to clock out real quick so i said id clock out and be right back. He said "really? you just ruined the moment." I said "you want me to lose my job? it's not like im even close to cumming anyways." i clocked out and came back to him on the couch with his fucking pants down asking me to suck it real quick, itll only take 2 min and he just spent time on me. I told him no, i will not be guilt tripped or pressured into it. I said i needed to leave right after work today and i'm going to. He pulled his pants up and got super apologetic and said he would focus on my needs more. He ate me out the next 2 times and it was nothing exciting. - No one will ever come in the way of my job or disrespect. SO MANY of these moments should have been the last time. I should have put my foot down and fucking said no.

Guys i'm embarassed to say this one but its anonymous right? Sheesh. We had sex without a condom, which i will never fucking do again. My pussy started to itch really bad and had a fishy smell that was so strong. My discharge got white and chunky. I immediately went to the gyno and guess what...bacterial vaginosis. This guy gave me a fucking bacteria in my vagina. omg, wtf? - Ill never have sex without a condom. If i get something, why the hell did i continue to sleep with him? While i was shooting medicine up in my pussy for 5 nights straight? So embarassing and will never happen again. what. the. hell.

Argument 1: He stayed over and slept until 12:30 IN THE AFTERNOON. I get up at 8:30 on weekends and get my day started. I clean the house, pay bills and work through my to-do list. I have a life, goals and things to do. I woke him up at 12:30 and asked if he was ever gonna get up. He said it's early and normally he sleeps in until 2. I was so unimpressed it turned into me asking if he has any goals or a routine. I called him immature, irresponsible and lazy. I said "I guess that's how it is when you live with your parents." The next day he told me he almost dropped me for it. Something he loved about me was that i'm mature, calm and independent. Yeah ok, until it comes down to being with a woman like that and meeting her standards. - When he said he almost dropped me, i stopped speaking to him for 3 days. Drop me? Bitch, i'll drop you. - I'll never be with someone that weak. Sleeping in all day? Watching TV while the sun is out? LAZY AS FUCK. I will never be quiet in my own home so some idiot can sleep in my bed. ​

Since he was spending the night, he needs to brush his teeth. He'd tell my dog all the time that his breath is kicking but this guys was so much worse. Y'all....I tried convincing this child on several times to brush his teeth. I was like "i have a free toothbrush that the dentist gives out, you can use it...do you need that toothbrush? i have an extra" so many times. He always said he would and then passed out with his nasty breath. Why am i parenting a grown man?? Like c'mon kiddies, time to wash your hands and brush your teeth so we can go to bed.

I made food for myself and he happened to come over after. I still had leftovers and food sitting out in the kitchen. He was in the living room and said he was hungry, i offered him some of the food. I did not make the food for him. He kept saying "just make me a plate." I was like "Idk how much you want, just come make it." Hes like "however much you think, it'll be fine" and insisted. Guys, i made him the fucking plate and it pisses me off. I did it on two occasions. I made the whole meal and you cant even make a fucking plate?? Fuck off. You shouldn't be eating my damn food anyways.

We had sex one night on the couch and after he said to bring him some paper towels. I got up and went to the bathroom to clean myself off. I came back without paper towels and told him they're in the bathroom or kitchen. He kept saying he needs some and i said to go get one. Hes all "really? really?" Umm, yes really. After i told him if theres a next time, he can clean me up. Im the prize and i will be treated as such. Changed my mind on having sex again, it was the last time. He said he had a headache and slept on the couch. I went to bed and masturbated. Nope, never again.

That night, he slept on the couch with his headache. I got up around 3:30 and like an idiot went in there and asked if he wanted to come to bed. He said my bed hurts his back and told me to sleep on the couch with him. I was like no, i have a bed and im gonna sleep there. This dumbass wanted me to sleep on the couch in my own fucking house FOR HIM. Id be tired and cranky the next day so my head could lay next to this guy and his back wont hurt? Fuck that, i went to bed. I would have sent him home next door but he didnt have his key with him.

"Will you do me a favor?" NOPE. NOPENOPENOPENOPE. The last time we spoke he asked if i had any gas to start his motorcycle and i let him use it like a dumbass. We hadn't spoken in 2 or 3 days and after using the gas, he said we just dont have a connection. The sex is great but thats all thats there. Funny, cause he always told me how great i make him feel. I told him the sex is questionable since i never had an orgasm. He said his piece and walked right off my porch without letting me respond. I called him a child and walked inside. If I would have spoken to him during those 2-3 days, he would have felt a connection. He didn’t lose interest, I did. Next time I’ll take control and say something before they do. He shouldn’t have been the one to end things with me and think he has the upper hand. I wasn’t sad at all when he told me I was just “yeah I agree, there’s no connection on my end, you aren’t what I’m looking for” but still. I want to be the one to push them away.

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Anyways, thats my rant of moments that have been bothering me. Several times ive found myself singing that song "hell naahhhh, hell to the nah nah nah, hell naaaahhh." Never again. I made some mistakes, but i think sometimes it takes mistakes to figure shit out. I will be a whole new bitch with the next guy.