Dear FDS, I had to use a new account not to doxx myself. Also didn’t want to post in relationship advice subreddit (which this account was originally made for) as I thought the person in question might see it.

Dudettes, I’m fucking awestruck atm. So is my dad. Thought I was gonna have a great Xmas with my dad and bf. But no...my bf is no longer welcome at my family’s house.

Ya I’ve been ignoring red flags like the rich avoid taxes. Okay, I’m a pickmeisha with the lowest self-esteem. Don’t rub it in. Haha. Sorry I have to make light of this a bit, my sarcasm keeps myself somewhat held together. It’s not towards you lovely ladies AT ALL.

I don’t know where to start. But my bf gets really pissed off when he gets waken up. There have been a few fights because of this. And it’s not like I’ve purposely woken him up any of these times. Once I saved him from a bug. And yeah, I got screamed at and was kicked out for saving him from said cockroach. This time, his dogs woke him up. Since he got woken up by the dogs, I thought he’d be able to tell me the WiFi pass. My phone was not working for the life of me, and his internet was my last hope (usually I don’t use his WiFi as his connection mostly sucks). He was mad I had turned on the t.v. As well. He flipped about me asking and said I’d survive. Basically tried to make me feel like a piece of shit for asking for the password, and a princess. “Oh poor you, it’s so tough for you isn’t it?.” And his favorite line he uses, “oh, you’re such a victim.” Also said he was trying to sleep...but he was standing and moving around dealing with his annoying dogs.

He proceeded to yell at me about this and tried to make me feel bad. He went on a rant about how no one else has any responsibility but him and that everyone fucks him over (his usual rant when woken up). My life is “so good” and I “have it made”- all because I decided to have my dad pick me up instead of having him stand there and yell at me. He actually got in my face and screamed, yelling, “get out of my face!” When all I did is put him in his place. I no longer let him get his way when he gets like this.

Note: I would have driven home, but I didn’t have my car as we ubered.

He just went on and on about everything I do wrong and everyone else does wrong and how he’s always slighted...once again what he does when woken up abruptly.

It’s crazy cuz my dad gave us gift cards to go to a really really nice restaurant tonight and made reservations just for tonight. My dad is SO pissed that my bf acted like this and treated me like this. He spent a LOT of money for us to have that dinner.

What was a great evening turned into shit. I’m gonna fix a drink. Merry freaking Christmas!!!

Ya there’s a lot more I could say, more stories I could tell. But I feel like y’all would say you wouldn’t need anymore stories. You’d probably say dump his ass. A few of y’all already got PMs about very personal stuff regarding his penchant for rough sex (choking and slapping). He also laughed at a rape scene on tv...because it was supposedly ironic.

Sorry to re-neg on no more stories, but...Yesterday he also decided to call a woman customer of his an “asshole.” Yet then he said to me, “I called her an asshole instead of cunt because I know you’d get all whiny if I said cunt”. Yeah...I’ve told him I don’t like guys calling women that numerous times.

Tell this pickmeisha how to break up with her bf. I’m honestly a little scared to and don’t know how to proceed. I didn’t use to be SUCH a pickmeisha until my last abusive relationship. And now I’m back again with this shit. I’m actually worried about how he will react. Please tell me how to get out or if I’m just being stupid. Everyone (friend, dad, therapist) says he’s got major issues. But I love him. Now I realize though that this is gonna just get worse. I thought maybe I was at fault somehow and caused him to get angry. But I think he’s already got this anger deep inside....ya it doesn’t take a genius to get that. But love makes you hope for the best. What can I say?

Sorry for unorganized thoughts here and over sharing. But I’ve really got no one to talk to and I’ve been following y’all for several days now. I really look up to you ladies and am hoping to learn from you.

Thanks for listening to this crazy tale and I hope you enjoy your Xmas (whether you celebrate the religion or not!)