Went out on the first date I’ve been on for ages. I just recently turned 21 and am very strict about my non negotiables. This man passed the vibe check and we agreed to go on a date. We went to a city close to both of us. Before hand he was super excited and we confirmed the date so all good signs. Unfortunately despite spending four ish hours with me talking and getting along with me; apparently he wasn’t attracted to me physically the entire time. Which isn’t exactly his fault but if I find a person unattractive in person I usually cut things short...

I mean I usually don’t give a damn what men think about me but it kills me that I’m always the cool girl to talk to but not cute enough to date despite me being above average looks wise. I know that’s probably pick me thinking but I feel so used rn. I wasn’t even sex or anything just my time that got used. Just to be called ugly.

Ofc he wasn’t going to straight up tell me he wasn’t attracted I had to make him spell it out so I didn’t waste more time.

Anyways done with men for 2020. Maybe I’ll try again next year maybe not. Meh.