I’ve been religiously trying to implement FDS rules. Id say more than dealing with relationships FDS helped me way better than my therapist. LOL. FDS rules helped me shift my mindset slowly which made me come at being peace and satisfied on my own. Even during times like this, i dont feel isolated nor lonely. Even when i dont have social interactions, i feel fully myself and content. But while reflecting on my past relationships i realized i have very specific types of guys i’m sexually attracted to. Those are minority and even when i dated guys from different aged and races, i still find them to consist minority percentage in any groups. I

really or only like tall, slim and young looking face guys who are genetically like that and can dress themselves but doesn’t and not into fashion and more humble . Guys i really liked and dated all have very similar personality type and all of the have been abused/bullied when young. They dont express emotionally much ans more aloof.

I tried dating guys who treat me well isnt my type physiclly but i just couldnt sustain it as i wasnt into them and they eventually picked up on it. When i was in london, i met a french guy who we met few times while he was traveling for woek to UK. When i moved back home, he said he wanted to visit me and to my surprise, i ended things with him. I knew it was nice gesture even when my ex wouldnt vist me. But this french guy iust wanstnmy type. He wasnt. He was good looking and i’m sure he wouldnt have issue attracting women.

One of my biggest fear is marrying a guy for the sake of getting married while him not fitting my type and having to have sex with him for the rest of my life. I’m def not the type that says “attraction grows overtime” as it was never the case for me. How do you deal with this?