Ladies I need some serious advice on how to leave this guy. Ok I’m going to summarize this quick. So basically I lost my virginity to this frat guy who was fucked up from his ex who went all crazy after he dumped her like 4 years ago. She would harass him like I went to a party and was flirting with him and she freaked out at me and yelled at me and they weren’t even together! Anyway after that he was totally fucked up, scared to love again.. so I had sex with him and I didn’t tell him he was my first. We basically would sleep together here and there nothing serious ( he would make it clear he didn’t wanna gf and I didn’t act like I liked him) and talk occasionally. We then decided to hang out just as friends I told him the truth about me losing it to him. He was super surprised but said it “all makes sense” idk what that means. Then randomly a couple days later we slept together and after he randomly confessed his feelings for me, said he wants to marry me have kids u know bullshit. It was a total shock because he literally never does this and I know a couple of girls who like him and he never catches feelings back. I was confused but I decided to tell him my true feelings as well. Anyway we decided to take it slow and get to know each other and hang out more to see where it goes. Then suddenly he just disappears on me.. I’m talking doesn’t answer my messages and ignores me. I was heartbroken. I felt so stupid and confused. After four months he messaged me randomly and apologized for what he did saying he didn’t want me to think I did anything. He explained he got freaked out internally because he doesn’t trust woman. And that he’s messed up and needs to work on himself. I forgave him and we decided to be friends. A couple months later we slept together ( I know stupid) and things just went sour because I still had those feelings but he didn’t want to rush in a relationship because he still had issues. We didn’t talk for a long time but I would notice he would watch my insta stories every time I posted ( we didn’t follow each other) it was kinda creepy. Then he messaged me merry Christmas randomly?? It was when I was going on a date with another guy too! Every time I try to move on he does something and I think of him again ugh!!!! So after he messaged me I couldn’t stop thinking about him so I kept the convo going saying how upset I was at him. We talked, made up and decided to be friends. I told him he wasn’t bad at being a friend just bad at being a lover. He told me “ Rome wasn’t built in a day, time will tell. He just thinks there’s been wrongs on both our parts” so we decided to be friends. We talked everyday, then we got into a discussion about love languages and emotional availability. He was saying how being emotionally available for him would be hard because he’s not an emotional person. I explained how when it’s with the right person it would be easy. I then told him that it feels like I’m not the right girl for him because if I was he wouldn’t feel this way. He said he’s just dealing with a lot right now and doesn’t want to saturate himself with that but time will tell. Anyway I ended up replying a bit late due to work and told him about my hectic day at work and HE NEVER REPLIED. I was so confused? Like what? A week later I sent a message saying how he could have replied to my message lol I was literally telling him about my day lol. I then flipped out and stated how he’s treated me horribly and I have literally done nothing to him. He finally replied and admits he shouldn’t have ghosted me and that he was “ so busy with work” he then said that nothing I did was wrong and that it’s all been in is end and that he’s just not ready for this right now. He said he’s been terrible and that I don’t deserve this and that he’ll leave me alone for the rest of my life. I never replied and I want to get over him but it’s so hard. I need to hear it straight up of why I need to leave for good because I know I should it’s just so hard not to when you literally love someone and you can’t control it. Please please help. Like is this a soul tie? Trauma bond . Do I need a therapist ?