I have a problem. My sexuality is such that I am only really turned on by a newish partner. The only time I am really excited and desiring sex is when I have a crush on a guy, often one who is somewhat unavailable.

I think it's maybe an attachment issue as my parents were both super detached but I don't know how to fix it.

I could be next to a super hot guy, like celebrity and stuff and not really feel attracted. I am only attracted to men when I have a crush on them. If I get my crush and we start dating the attraction goes away by 6 months.

That's pretty typical except that my attraction is basically gone after that. Idk, maybe I'm dating ugly men.

My current bf is great. I am considering him possibly being a keeper (all depends if he proposes once as graduate as we discussed) but idk if that's worth it if my attraction is low. We still have sex and it feels good but I usually end up pulling out the lube. He is happy to eat my pussy and do everything I ask but I have trouble tapping into my body and just enjoying the sensations. Everything is psychological for me.

Thank you for any advice. Idk what to do.