Tonight I went out to 7/11 to buy some lollipops (it's an addiction) when I ran into a friend who invited me to go out with him tonight. I haven't seen him in a while and decided to tag along.

We went out to a local bar and he quickly ditched me for a girl, oh well I guess. There were plenty of people there that I knew so it wasn't a big deal. I ended up hitting it off with a bartender, I know, I know....

Anyway it seemed like she really liked me and I was about to give her my phone number when my life flashed before my eyes. I saw her accepting my number and then texting me later. I saw it being a great first few months, a decent decent second few months, and okay first year. I then saw things taking a turn for the worst, I saw her getting mean and abusive. I saw her getting pregnant despite being on birth control. I saw thing getting good again, I saw the baby being born and then things getting bad again. I saw her leaving me a year or so after the baby being born. I saw her leaving me. I saw her dating unemployed scrubs, I saw me paying $700+ a month in child support. I saw myself ending my own life.

I didn't give her my phone number. I'm feeling lonely. I really wish that NAWARLT.