So the wife says to me the other day, "All you do is objectify me. Is that all that I am to you?" I replied with, "Yeah, the other women I objectify don't seem to mind, in fact, they kind of like it." She didn't say anything further.

I have been a lot more sexually subjective in our conversations. She has been giggly about most of it. This morning, I went to initiate some sex while she was sleeping, I started by rubbing her vagina ever so softly. She awoke and says, "What are you doing?" I replied with "Trying to light a fire" She followed with "I got to pee" I didn't here no in there so I kept after it. She then said, "I have to get up." I just casually said, Oh, ok. At this point, I figured I will wait until she goes to the bathroom. If she gets back into bed, cool, if not, cool, I go about my day. She didn't come back so I went about my day.

Eight months ago I wouldn't have even tried that because should would have ripped my head off for waking her up. I feel like I am doing better at the IDGAF attitude. This has been a struggle for me at times, but it does get easier.

I have to say, this is a way more interesting ride then what I was doing before. I am definitely learning a shit ton of stuff I should have learned 20 years ago.